Monthly Archives: March 2014

How to Start Looking at Your Emotions

The first in a series that Spirit asked me to talk about.

I love you.


Crying for the Prophets

I’m sad tonight and I can’t push it away. I won’t deny it.

If I deny it, it will continue because I do not claim it. And for me, the only way out is through.

The dark night of the soul does not come just once for me, I know. There are many times I’ve felt this.

I am grateful to find peace in the knowing that it passes. And I can hold my center in the conflux of emotions.

But it does not mean that I do not feel their pain and echoes of my own.

Tonight I have to express it to move through it.


I’ve been feeling the frustration of our prophets. The ones who communicate with Source, who listen when they want to act, who share what they know from a deep desire to benefit others, who see what few can see. It has been building as they watch what happens in our world and want to end the suffering of other spirits here. They have such compassion for us and have devoted their waking and dreaming hours to assist all who will listen.

And the breaking point is coming for some. To gather together. To take action to put the pieces together to form a complete picture.  The desire to know is all encompassing. We want to understand how it will happen. We grasp. We want security. A place to rest. To catch our breath.

I know that feeling well.

I work with it daily.

It is the mind. Grasping at what it cannot have.

Because we do not come to this plane to know what will happen. It is not even how we learn. Otherwise, there would only ever need to be one book written and we would all follow it.

Life would be perfect.

But we live on Earth and our road map is our intuition. Our guidance system is compromised of our feelings.

We didn’t come to do the same things or it would be simple and we would be the same. We came to experience different things and in showing those to others, we create an opportunity for others to shine in a different way.

But I still feel their frustration and their anger at being given a gift without having all the pieces. It goads them to action but action from fear.  I do not share their fears because they are not mine to share with you but you know fear so you know what a powerful motivator it can be.

So I ask Spirit what do I do. The answer is nothing. Do nothing to change others.  Look at yourself.

I sit on my hands.

I look at myself.

What am I afraid of?

I am afraid that I am the only one who sees this timeline and that it is mine alone. I am not afraid of my future because I can see where it leads. But I want to bring as many souls with me because it is a beautiful alternative to the warring, painful timeline that comes from a place of fear.

But the only way out is through. That is my way.  Not by denying how I feel but by claiming it, looking at it, sitting with it and allowing it space until it dissolves and all that is left is my heart.

And then I view myself as I would view another. From the place of the Beholder, outside my body. Watching myself.

Doing the best job I am able with the tools I currently have and looking and listening for others from which to learn. Because I have a mind too and it cannot understand the nature of Divinity. I can only use my intuition to lead me to the next place I need to be for my spiritual evolution.

And tonight that place is writing.

Because those prophets are my mirror and their struggle is mine.

So tonight I cry.

Knowing my tears will bring me to the next experience I need for what I wish to create. And I am grateful.


I wish you peace.


Why Hasn’t the Earth Ascended Yet?

Hello Loves,

This is a difficult message for me to relay. The collectives wanted me to make a video and I told them I’m not ready to be the face for this yet. I hope you will understand.

But I believe this message has merit and I do want to share it so I am writing it instead.

I’ve been getting pieces of this for a few days and took some time to wash dishes and be still tonight and the message rounded out into something that I could coherently put together.

This message is for lightworkers and those waking up who are wondering why the planet has not ascended yet.  I have been feeling their anger, frustration and fear.

And I love you.

I love, love, love YOU.

I know it is difficult right now.

Late last week, Spirit guided me to this video by Bashar about divergent timelines and how things are speeding up.

I loved it and it was exactly what the collectives have been telling me since I choose a different timeline.  It fits here because it is congruent with what the collectives have to say about what we are creating right now and the opportunities available to us right now.

First, I want to reiterate that there IS enough time for what you want to create. There is enough time for what I want as well and I’m being led to where I need to be to create it.

You have enough time. We all do right now.

The message I received was addressed to individuals who are part of lightworker and starseed communities and how to best utilize those communities.

The upswing in participation in these communities is amazing and very encouraging!  Spirits are finding their soul families, those of the same ilk, those from the same star system and having joyous reunions.  Spirits are aware of karma working in their lives, releasing what no longer serves them and moving forward with what does. It is a glorious time!

What the collectives would like to point out is that with the knowledge that the Earth is ascending and that we are creating the timeline here, it is important to notice where we are directing our energy, attention and intention. Intention being the main one here.

These communities came from the intention to find each other, to share our common vision and to assist in the Earth’s ascension as we came to do. This feels monumental to many, many souls who do not feel prepared for this and want to know what to do and how to do it.

What is happening for some is that being part of these communities has provided a means of looking for reassurance and a way to assuage their fear.  Some are looking for answers in these communities that cannot be found there.  There is not one channeled message which will answer all your questions and remove your fear about the future.

Look to your intention when you engage in these communities.  There are some who are waking up and need support. That is raising their vibration. There are some who share and post to provide support and reassurance to others who are confused. That raises their vibration.

If your intention is to find an answer about when ascension is happening to relieve your fear, that intention and subsequent action is not raising your vibration. It is continuing your fear-based thinking because you are trying to escape feeling fear which is resisting it.

So, you’re thinking…then how will I find out?

Wanting to be free of this fear is natural and you are seeking a way to do it which is admirable and miles ahead from many who do not know of ascension.

Give yourself credit for that.  Please.

The collectives would like you to look at the fact that you have fear and to work on acknowledging that first. Then use the law of attraction to your own personal benefit.  Look at what is already working in your own life.  You possess many faculties and gifts. You are loved and have guides. The earth speaks to you and when you listen, it will provide what you need.

Take care of yourself.  There are many forms of self-care and that is a topic for another post.

How will I know when to re-engage in the ascension community?

You will be led to it.  When you have peace and are feeling loving towards yourself, you are able to more clearly hear your intuition and guides as well as being able to detach from other’s opinions of you to take whatever action you are led to take. You will not have fear of the future.

You can look to your intention. Do I have a message I want to share or support I can provide for those who need it?  Then re-engage. You will know.

Finally, as Bashar’s video explains in more detail, now is a wonderful time to choose which timeline you would like.  (Or to create your own if you don’t like the ones you have accessed.) As we experience time moving forward, the timelines will start to diverge and we have great power this year.

There are timelines in which there is intervention and others where we do it ourselves and many combinations thereof.  Do you want a cataclysmic timeline, a peaceful timeline or something in between? Can you picture how to do it?  Can you ask your guides? Can you hear others’ ideas of how to manifest it?

As with everything here, intention is key. Look to your intention.

I’m excited about my timeline and I would like to experience it with you if you desire.

The collectives that assemble the matrix greet you and make themselves available to you if you desire their guidance.

This message has provided resonance, contrast or indecision for you.  I wish you peace, my fellow traveler.


For those feeling confused

Hi, Loves!

I’ve been thinking of you and feeling many of you who are confused.  Take care of yourself. There is time.  And you aren’t alone. I am feeling many, many people who are very confused but not talking about it.  Can you just take today as it comes?  It will come together.

Some of you have contacted me privately and I want to reiterate that YOU are not alone in how you are feeling right now. Others may not be telling you how they feel but they are telling me and I can feel others as well.  And it’s global.

There is nothing wrong. Find what feeds you right now and do it. For yourself.

I can’t get the messages out fast enough right now but Spirit wants you to know that you are not alone.  Many lightworkers, starseeds, otherkin and others are confused by the messages they are getting and want clarity.  Human brains are helpful here but we can’t understand everything through reason and logic.

The law of attraction is a wonderful gift here. When you can’t see where you are going, you can do what makes you feel good now to influence your future.

I love you.


2014-02-28 Happiness Update

It’s a night of rest here at Casa Seize One Day.  And it’s been coming all week.

I thought my next update was going to be a video but, oh well, Spirit had other plans.  Flow, flow, flow.  I don’t need to know the reason in order to do it.

It’s been an energetic two weeks full of shifts and changes and going forward and backward and being hit over the head with messages. So, the only struggle i have when writing these posts or making a video is how much to share. That’s really our issue every day, isn’t it?  We are all at different places in our journey and those precise events may not happen in the same way to others.  And I am very blessed to have people from all different walks in my life.  Thank you for being my friend.  I hope you can feel my love for you. 🙂

Spirit guides me to talk about the feelings I have had over the past several weeks.

I asked for several paths to be made for me for things that i wanted.  Then the paths were shown to me and I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with gratitude and then that I could even be blessed enough to experience them.

I honestly did not expect them to happen so quickly and I was guided to the fact that i had been hearing over and over again that we are creating this experience for ourselves.  I feel that we are manifesting faster and faster what we wish to experience. I find it to be a powerful and uplifting message.

That leads me to what do you do when you get what you want.  It shouldn’t be a problem, right?  That WAS what I wanted so now just enjoy it. Oh, I did!

For me, I felt all kinds of happy.  Exploding at the seams, jumping for joy, screaming from the rooftops, skipping down the street, crying at everything HAPPY.  And all I wanted was for every single person on the planet to feel this happy. To feel this supported and to have this much gratitude and appreciation and love for all that we are.  I can’t keep it to myself.

I wouldn’t even want to keep it to myself because happiness multiplies. I can see that.  We lose nothing by someone else being happy.  When I am happy, all I want to do is share it with others.  (This usually results in random hugs!)

And the key (for me) is that you don’t have to be happy doing what I’m doing. I want you to be happy doing whatever it is that makes you happy.

And…..don’t take offense here…..but I don’t care what you do.

(Stay with me; this is going somewhere, I promise.)

Not because I don’t love you but because I already know what makes me happy and there isn’t a way that you can take it from me. I can create it whenever I want.  Furthermore, I’m pretty sure that my exact combination of what makes me happy is not your combination.  It could be and if so, go for it.

But what makes me even more excited is to see how you pull pieces together to make yourself happy.  Because I know after you make yourself so blissfully happy that you are going to want to share it and create something totally unique and a beautiful expression of your life.

And then I get to enjoy that!

(I know. I’m pretty excited about this. I barely believe it myself.)

I cannot tell you how excited and on fire I am to experience everyone else being as happy as me.  I just can’t wait to see what you do!  I see the entire world transformed and it all happens peacefully. I want to witness every moment of US creating this new world.

(I’m calming myself down here so I can finish the post with a coherent thought.  I do promise, it is coming.)

So, I am one person.  And there are a lot of other people in the world. Most of whom I don’t know. (But would like to hug.)

And there are many unhappy people in the world with no idea of how to make themselves happy or even where to start.  I spent most of my life there so I KNOW what that is like.

I asked Spirit to show me how to help. I can’t make anyone do anything and I have no interest in subverting anyone’s will.  But I really feel like I’m onto something big here and I am always willing to help people however I can.

And Spirit answered.

Loud and clear.

I have been getting messages for videos to make and topics to talk about.  All day long.  I have to write them down just to get them out.

And the topics are to tell people how I came to having this outlook on life and how I interact with the world on a daily basis.

Because my escape plan used to be suicide and now I am so happy I can barely contain myself. I rarely think of how I used to be but that is the truth.  If I had gotten what I wanted at the time, I would be dead right now.

So, Spirit says to be me but that I need to share how I got to be this way. Because there isn’t a book on it and it took awhile for me to come to this place. I spent much time tailoring my outlook and my response to life because I didn’t see what i wanted to create in the world and I decided that I was going to make a new way for myself.

But I still live in a world where things don’t work out the way I think they will. I live with handling my own disappointments and emotions as well. My life is not perfect.

But I have immeasurable peace and trust in the Universe that never fails.  I don’t experience despair or hopelessness anymore.

I don’t live on a mountain.  I have a family and kids and responsibilities and I find a way to flow with them.

I hope that you will stay with me. I hope that you will share with me and find what makes you happy and tell me what resonates with you and what doesn’t.

Because I want to be in this world as equals.

I want to know you. You are exquisite.