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Two posts in one day!  

Thank you for all the love and everyone who reached out. We have such a great community here. I love it.

I’m feeling better and integrating this new awareness within my body. Right now that just means lots of rest and water.

I wanted to share the many supports I had during the day as I was having my giddy fit. I received offers of help from seven people. At lunch five strangers complimented me. I hit all green lights on the way home. My best friend texted me. (We only talk when guided by Spirit. Otherwise we give each brain melt. LOL!) I talked to a new friend who was perfectly fine that I wasn’t my usual chipper self. And I ate sushi. (Sushi is good.) 

So the universe is still benevolent even when I don’t really want to communicate with it.

Now I’m going to relax into this new mindset I’m learning. And hopefully make a video soon. I miss talking to you!

Thank you again for all the love. I love you!

In love and sushi,



My one week snow anniversary

One week ago today I made it snow for the first time.  I didn’t even know I could do that!  EEEEEE!!!!!!!  I’m still super excited!!!!!!


The dragon saw me in all my glory, giddy as a schoolgirl, watching it on the balcony and jumping up and down and screaming. He asked how long I was going to make it snow since he wanted to go out later so we capped it around 20 minutes. But it was sooo beautiful!

2016-02-06 Journal Entry

trees in forest, pretty green light

From my personal journal earlier this month after learning a new relating process.

Acting my way into changing myself- stopping doing what I didn’t like, forcing myself into doing what I think I “should” be doing – does work but for me it felt like there was always something more that I wanted to be before I was done. I didn’t know that that would continue as I live because I am the creator and there will never be a time when it is “all done.” I constantly have new desires and trying to quash them is counter to a creative nature.

Using willpower to change my actions only went so far and I was using my previous actions and accomplishments to gather self-confidence. This works when situations are conducive to my goal but make me dependent on outside factors to feel that I am achieving what I want. If something arises that does not allow me to accomplish my goal and is outside my control, my self esteem suffers. This sets me up for a harmful cycle.

Learning to relax, to surrender to my own self and trust in the benevolent nature of all I am allows me to….
Be well.
Believe that it is all coming to me precisely as I need it.

Knowing that I am never done and I can bring whatever I need to me is reassuring. It quiets that voice that says I can rest later.

I can rest now.
When I feel myself getting tight, I can go to this whenever I need to.

And it feels good. It is exactly what I have been looking for in every person, place, situation. I can take it everywhere I am.

Being psychic has been very helpful in this but I don’t think it is necessary. Everyone knows what peace feels like and that is all you truly need to begin this.

But being psychic made me aware of all sort of feeling states that we don’t have words for. It showed me that what we experience here is a small sliver of what is and what we are. It teaches me that what we can do and access is more than what is commonly thought of as available. The ciphers taught me much of that. Still not sure what to do with them but I know I’ll know it when it comes.

As I’ve been chilling out more and more – letting go of all those things I think I have to do – I feel more fulfilled, loved and satisfied than I ever have. I wasn’t even looking for those things, just relief from thinking that I had to wash all the dinner dishes before I could relax. I’m finding the more I chill out, the more all those things that I’ve been wanting flow right into my life – people, money, opportunities, inspiration, answers to questions.

You would think that I would do this more often so that I could get those things but when I surrender and trust my own path I don’t really care about them anymore. Not that I don’t want them but I don’t need them anymore to be happy and fulfilled where I am. They become like choosing between chocolate or vanilla cake and I’m just excited to be offered dessert after a delicious meal.

The best part is that I don’t need anything or anyone to access this part of my experience. I can do it anywhere at any time and I’m getting better at basking in it and staying there for most of the day. Then inspiration hits, I follow it and whatever happens, happens.

I’ve had so many miraculous things happen in the past few years, things I have no idea how to explain or why they happened or even that I thought were possible.  I’ve gotten so many things that I wanted that I thought would take years and years to come about. They were wonderful but prompted a deep desire to know and understand after each one.

This new way of being makes it easy, so easy. It was fun before but this is effortless. The answers do come but when I am ready and it feels natural instead of giving me brain melt.  I’m not constantly trying to catch up with myself and my emerging perceptions and experiences. There isn’t as much tumbling down the rabbit hole.  The changes in myself happen naturally and I don’t even notice them until I look back. I’m getting pretty good at it now and can turn around how I feel very quickly.

I thought that I would get nothing done and couldn’t imagine how this would work but I couldn’t keep turning myself inside out with work and family commitments and having time to connect with me and what I wanted. It just wasn’t working.

Feeding the kids peanut butter and jelly for dinner and leaving the dishes in the sink. Ordering takeout, heading out to see the trees and asking someone else to do the laundry. Calling out of work for no reason other than I want to. Saying I need time to myself and taking off for a while solo with no plan. They all worked great. And then I actually wanted to cook again and do laundry.

So I’m letting it all go. Gonna be lazy for quite a while, hopefully the rest of my life. I could definitely enjoy this.


The Essence of Relationship – Staying

[I’m contributing to my beautiful friend Linda’s Time Machine Blogging Challenge.  Hop on over to read other timey-wimey, wibbley-wobbley perspectives and participate.

This post is from the past, about a year after my awakening began.] Continue reading

2015-07-24 Update

Whew!  It’s been a long time but feels so good.

My longest video ever after the unintentional hiatus. For some reason, I took notes and worked from them for this video. I’ve made a few that I don’t post here because this is my journey. If you want all the videos I make,  YouTube will gladly sign you up.

If you left a comment and I didn’t write back yet, I’ll be catching up this week.

(Surprise! Youtube didn’t do a screen capture for some reason. You won’t be looking at trees for the video. It’s me.)

Includes a recap for new followers.

Personal history starting with focus on self-love and spiritual awakening.
Body issues through awakening including grounding, leaving the body and difficulty maintaining form.
Household makeup and introduction of house dragons and interdimensional entity here from convergence.
Convergence and its relationship to ascension with personal convergence example.
Discussion of personal work with consciousness, expanding awareness, love and benefit of working with body elemental.
Why I started working with only one guide.
What daily life looks like and tools I use.
Current opportunities after releasing identity
A new member of our household from overseas.

Much love!

2014-12-18 Body Update

Changes in the new body. Shifts in temperature regulation, stronger intuition, nutritional changes. Thoughts on expression of differences to others. Returning to the Earth plane. Self-love’s link to intuition. Running the gauntlet processing new emotions and accolades from guides. Continue reading

Looking to Spread Some Christmas Cheer?



Hi Loves,

I don’t talk much about how I spend my time and money for charity. My guides and angels are giving a big push on this one, though. If you are an empath/HSP who is having trouble picking up others’ energies or if you are not feeling well empath or not, go directly to the bottom of this post now. Continue reading